A bit of a disclaimer this evening I am a fraud. this isnt my wrist though if I was feeling the least bit worthy of comfort it would be. I got this image from another place in the vast reaches of the net. I wont go as far as to say that what you see is a good thing Im simply saying I understand that sentiment. Seriously sometimes its just like wtf? to the point that it bubbles up to your skin and itches you from the inside out till you let it go. This is a strange place that I am in tonight well this morning as it is almost 3am..... Yet another person has gone running from my life simply because they can not afford to give and I have nothing left for them to take and yet I am and i qoute "dificult to love" but if you prob that deeper you get the following "your doing so much with your life and mine doesnt seem to compare and it scares me" honestly its all kinda left me in this place where i want to cut to scream at the world in the only way i know how WTF, but that seems to just be rolling over for the cycle then the next person who meets me and panics can say oh its not my fault shes damaged and so its ok that i cant handle it. NO MORE people this is what i have to say about things Ill own my shit and you own yours understand? if you leave its because you feel threatened and scared and whatever else but it is not a reflection on me or my worth to the universe or to myself. so i will not cut for you i will not give you the excuse when you feel alone and worthless and helpless and I am not there and you come crawling back in my life saying Femi femi please pick me up the way that you used to Femi will say Mama dont play that way ........ and you will be left wondering wtf is up with your life.
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